Up in the Air

That is where our future is, at all times.
I'm a planner. Assuming I know in advance that something is going to happen, I like to hammer out a plan for it as soon as humanly possible. I know that the finer details may change. I even realize that the biggest details may change, but I still plan anyway. My brain likes to know that a plan is in place, even if its not the final draft. When we found out in December of 2003 that Michael was scheduled to go to Iraq in December of 2004, I started working on a plan. I was going to move home, then I was going to stay put in NC, then I decided to move home. For each of those big sets of plans, there were countless plan A's and B's. Its just how I operate.
This can make you go a little bit insane when you're an Army wife.
The current insanity is based around uncertainty about his job. To put it in the simplest terms possible that don't require an understanding of military stuff to comprehend:
He works in an office. That office is headquarters, and there were, until recently, I think 4 other little offices "beneath" them. There's also an office "above" them. (above and below on a flow chart, not necessarily in chain of command, and certainly not in physical location) His office and its sub-offices are all in the process of deactivating/dissolving. A couple of sub-offices are gone now, his is rumored to be scheduled to dissolve in June. One of the sub-offices will be the last to go - late this year or early next year.
So where does this leave Michael? Good question! This question makes my brain spin on a daily basis.
He can stay put and then go where they send him once the deactivation is final. That could be somewhere else here, or it could be some other Army base all together. They'd try to keep him here.
He could go to the sub-office that will stick around for a while, assuring that we'll stay put for at least several more months.
Then there are three other job options which have been mentioned to him. One would include him going away to a school for a few weeks, then coming back here and he'd be here as "permanent" as it gets. The second one would put him in an office doing I'm not sure what, but I know he likes that option a lot. The third would put him in the office that is over his, working directly under a Colonel, in a job slot that is designed for someone two ranks above what he is - and this is one that his name was put in for, and pretty much, if he wants it, its his. It would be a high visibility job, and it would also keep him here for at least another year. We want to stay put physically, partly because I would prefer not to move while pregnant or with a newborn, and partly because we want him to go to Officer School in the near future, which will involve a couple of moves too. Keeping the moving to a minimum would be nice.
I have no clue which job he'll go with, and its not even totally up to him. and within those, there are so many possible sub-plans, that I'm forcing my brain to not even think about the possibilities. (When would he go to this few week school? Not during September, right? What if he went to that one he likes a lot and then deploys, that would suck. What if he goes to this high visibility job and then that office winds up shutting down ahead of schedule? Its just too much.)

This is part of why my brain is dead right now. That and, I need to get the house cleaned fully, so that I can start digging through all of the boxes of clothes to find all of the boy ones, and get them seperated by size, and then figure out where this Baby Boy's clothes are going to go since our closets are all full. Not to mention that trying to come up with a name is just overwhelming.
Kelly's brain = fried. I don't function well when I have no plan. All I "know" right now is that the baby is coming sometime in September, theoretically in Georgia, but with all of the stuff with Michael's job, there's just no telling.
The good news is that I know which car seat I'm getting. So hey, that's a start, right?