And back in line we go

I share this here instead of FB because I have a smaller audience here these days.

I totally skipped over one "you're deploying, oh wait nevermind!" incident from a few weeks ago, but once again, he's been told he's going. This time, he's switching jobs, moving up to a staff brigade job, and brigade deploys this winter. So, again, we're looking at a year long deployment. A high drama Christmas, and a lonely year. With a 2 yr old, a 4 yr old, an 8/9 yr old, and a 10/11 yr old.

Preteen drama has begun, and is already about to make me crazy. We've spent an awful lot of time talking about hair styles, fashion, and crushes. With both big kids. And now I'll be left here to deal with it alone, as it escalates.

Please, dear God, let Xander be an easier 4 year old than the 2/3 yr old he's been for the past 2 years. Because I can't handle a "terrible twos" kid AND an insane Xander all at the same time. While dealing with the surging hormones in the other two. Oh good grief, I may as well give up now. They're going to make me insane (er), I just know it.

We've spent the last couple weeks e-window-shopping, looking at houses to buy next year, if we felt confident that we'd be here a while longer. I was on my way to look at our newest "dream house" when he called with the news. I was glad that the house was just "meh." If it had been perfect, I would have wished we could get it. Now, I want to stay put at least until he gets back. So the houses all look much less appealing to me now.

I also started on writing something earlier today, but I didn't finish it yet. It'll hopefully get finished tomorrow. It's a bit of a departure from my typical random babbling about our life. I write it with one specific person in mind, but felt like it should be put up for all to see, because maybe someone else needs to hear it, too. So stay tuned.